sooooooo.

interview tomorrow! at tescos.

eak im so nervous.

and confused.......

like part of me wants this job so bad and apart of me

doesnt care if i dont get it, ive had that many rejection

letters and im just ready to pack up and go move to cyprus.

(if my grandma would let me come with her).

everyones pushing me to get a job when they know i dont

wanto be here, its so frustrating.

I hate it here, it makes me feel soooo much worse.

im never goin to stop feeling depressed

stop with all this paranoier, anxiety shit.

if i dont get out of here..

and stop with the eating obsessive (maybe i dont want to stop with that?)

maybe i do... but i cant. ARGH im so confused.

sorry guys, had a pretty rubish 2 days, once again.

hopefully if i do get this job, (not sure how many hours, days etc)

but i can fast the days i work. and it will mean more walking etc.

so maybe its a good thing.

idk, will let you know how it goes on..

hope all is well for all you lot.xxxxx

will update on blogs later, or tomorrow... sorry! so tierd,

need to practise questions, pick outfits.

ETC. im so obsessive eurghhhhhhh.

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