ive binged.

binged binged binged binged!!!

I new i was doing it i just couldn't stop.

ill just have to burn it all off... if it takes all night lol

ill just do as many sit ups as i can, jumping jacks,

and some weight lifting thing (stole them from my brother tehe)

going to be hard as i just dont get motivated to do any exersise any more

not sure why, infact i am sure why im just LAZY.

i will do it though, ive got to.

but still god i feel disgusting:'(

a whole week of having under 200 cals.

and i go and ruin it..

hope you guys are doing ok.

going to read through your blogs soon :)

btw thanks for your comments! 

i love coming on to have some comments,

really makes me feel alot better..

as ive said before you are all my inspiration!!

<3

goddd! im so annoyed..

i got this really good skin and worked out

how to use the htmls and stuff..

then my stupid follow button woudnt show! :@:@:@

took me ages last night to sort it out aswell........

anyway intake for today, 

i had half a sandwich... i even felt bad after that

but i hadto have something before mom came back,

she didnt even ask me if i had eaten so that was pointless!!

and at tea time i had a fish with sause which was 144 cals and had some carrots

and it isssssssss 10;25pm so thats it for meeee today !! :)

will post more later going to try make my blog
look more decent lol.

<3

ok soooooo....

i dont think ive added a 'follow me' button

on my new layout can someone help me? lol

Wish you could spend one night

in my head. With my thoughts for pillows

and emotions for a bed, Then maybe you could

understand things aren't so simple and this

wasn't planned.

<3

8th october.

LOL sorry about that confusing posttttt!

this is todays post :)

sooooooo ive got a new skin template thing :)

i love it! took me ages to work out how to add codes on to here

and everything, (i didnt make it) kinda cheated and got of website haha..

the only thing idont like is you cant see my followers :/ oh wait ive just realised where they are.

lmao sorry blonde moment.. ill rename that bit in a minuite its under applicable or something

not quite sure ://

SO today ive had...... a cappichino the sachet was 59 cals.. 

but with milk and everything i maybe round up to 70?? or less..

and then i had some soup which was 62 cals :) 

and its now 9:39. so thats it for me.. ive got my food sorted out

its just exercise i really need to work on :/ need to do more.

Just dont have any energy but nothing will happen if i dont do exercise thats

what ive gotta keep telling my self! :)

ermmm news about (a) the one that was going hot and cold. 

welllll he went cold again lol, so i just told him where to go ;) 

he's texted me a few times butt just going to focus on caine! lmao

god i sound like a right slag! im not tho i havent met these people

see thats how sad i am i meet people from facebook, 

i hate my self that much i dont go out lol..

but thats changingggggggg! im going to loose all this weight to meet caine :)

i cant wait, he's talking about it more, which he didnt before

so i thought he wouldnt want to..

so the next thing is to plan a date! haha.

wellllllll whilst i was messing around with my skin,

i was on photobucket.. i am now inlove with that site! haha

its got loads and loads of pictures.. so i got aload more new thinspo pics!

btw i was reading through my old diary last night and ive got alot of poems and stuff in there

that ive found over the months of websites and stuff so thought i'd post some

on every blog i have just at the end of it :) i really love poems i can relate toooo.

I hope one day you could maybe, see how difficult

this is for me.. because up seems down and left seems right,

im out of ways to fight this tonight.

yep so im going to go check out on all your new blog updates! 

xox

october 7th.

so i didnt post yesturday... but i couldnt sleep

 so i wrote in my diary 

(what i had before blogged)

 what i was going to write so lets just pretend this 

post is yesturdays haha then ill post todays post after! confusing but heyy :)

Hey guysssss.

im excited and happy because ive been doing really well

 i finally have my control back... well its only been a week lol 

but still! ive been keeping to my plan having under 400 calories, but ive

been having alot less than that, im just past hunger tbh.. i really need to buy some scales..

maybe saturday, hate going out on my own though. and i cant tell anyone

im buying them, but we will see.

I feel sooo Empty!.. keep feeling dizzy and atm im feeling quite sick.

Oh and cant forget the headaches im getting! but i kinda like it (I know im weird)

but its kinda like proof that i havent been eating alot.

So yeah, i watched katie price tonight i really do love her!... (I love pete aswell.. tehe)

I think there kids are adorable.. 
crap mum just walked in jeeze that was close! 

yeah so there kids, yeah especially princess! just not to keen on the name.. haha, i like

Tiami just not the princess bit lol imagine writing that on your school book!

Well it showed katie showing all her clothes.. 

omg! so jelous shes got a whole flooooor of a waudrobe,

and all her jeans phoarrrrrrrrr if only!... i love jeans atm

i think u could dress them up and down and still look fashionable!!

It is exactly 3.00 am here and i cannot sleep! im still wide awake...

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Hope your all well, stay strong we cannn do this!!!! :)




xox

heloooooooooooooooooooooooo!

ive hadd...... 1 yogurt, which was 74 cals..

and for tea i had spag bol, 

but only half of what i got given :)

i need my scales back ://///.

grandma borrowed them and 

now apparently she cant find them...

yeah right. ugh! 

Anyway! got some news about (a)

wellllllllllllllll hes started talking again, 

and argh i like him so much

and everytime he stps talking to me it doesnt 

bother me any more, like im useto him going of,

then him coming back again but 

everytime he comes back ive been getting

 close with someone else,

and then me and him get close again and then 

it makes me go of the person that im close to already 

and then (a) fks of again1 ARHGHGH so 

confusinggggggggggg. 

im just waiting for him to go now, 

he said to me the other night.... 

'why wont u tell me your feelings for me and stuf '

 i did tell him when i was in cyprus and

 its not easy for me to open up to people then

 he just fucked of again, so i just dont get him...

 and hes 4 years older than me, so abit 

childish really for his age!

anyway sorry i bet that made no sense what so ever 

to you all. just needed to let it out!

& do any of you use prettythin... 

i was addicted to that before i started on blogspot 

but now i just dont go on it anymore, weird.

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