collar bones

I think im obsessed with collar bones!

its the first thing i look at on people.

i love theeeeeem.

how weird??????????????? lol.

thanks for ur commentssssssss.

and yesss its a song by jordan pruitt.

its my fave, can so relate to it.

ill be reading all blog updates tomorrow 

as ive got a whole day :p

thats how i spend my saturdays lol.

hope your all ok.

x x x x  x x

You don't know how it feels To be outside the crowd. You don't know what it's like. And you don't know how it feels. To be your own bestfriend on the outside looking in.

helooooooo!

... Dont really have much to reporttttt!

    PROMISE to update pictures of progress very soon..

    its 7:35 pm and so far ive had

    A bap, which i reckon about 150 cals...

     and some ham, 60 cals.. had to because grandma was on my case,

    moms going to be back soon and be on my case

    so think im going to have to have some soup .. about 70 cals..

    280 cals?? 

    hope you are allll ok! will get updated on all your blogs now ;)

    xxxxxxxxxx

TOO MUCH TIME

At the root of insanity

Is having too much time on your hands--

Too much time to think--

Too much time to remember past hurts

And to wish things could be different.

Too much time spent alone,

Staring at these four walls

With too much time to think,

To remember past hurts

And to wish things were different.

Got to rid myself of this insanity.

I'll busy myself with a flurry of activities

And seek the companionship of others.

They´ll tell me time heals all wounds,

But for now I'll still cry--

When I have too much time to think

And remember past hurts,

Wishing things are different.

hey guys.

thanks again for your comments, they do honestly make me feel alot better.

so tomorrow im DEFO going to go walk into Wellington and buy some scales!

its like half hour walk, so some exercise too.

then ive decided to add my stats and everything and gw and everything else

and also some pictures of my progress, but ((cutting of face))

dont think im ready for that yet, still get quite paranoid if anyone see's me on here..

I regret cutting so bad now.

oh well, it cant be undone.

i just need to learn how to control my feelings.

also im going to reccccccreate my blog ;) 

going to try and add a thinspiration button 

i have so many pictures i loose track on what i have and havent used!

So im feeling quite positive for tomorrow.

eating : thats going ok since feeling down i dont feel like eating, so

ive just been having 1 meal a day and thats infront of my mom.

which last time i did it like this i lost the most so i just need to start

exercising more now!

hope you girlies are doing fine.

xxxxxxx

just want to say thankyou for all your comments,

and im sorry i hvent been posting regularly 

im feeling pretty depressed atm? if thats even the word to use.

And i just dont know how to put how im feeling into words.

Its hard cos i really wanto come on here and just let everything out,

its always makes me feel better saying how i feel on here

but for some reason i just cant let it out i dont know what to say apart from 

im feeling low.

ive started cutting again.

but no one knows how i feel every1 thinks im ok, 

ive just been use to putting on a fake smile and pretending that everythings ok.

and then when i get to my room that all changes..

i wish i wudnt do that i wish i could show them how i feel.

im scared of my self when i feel like this.

im scared to go to sleep. ive been having horrible dreams.

mostly about my dad (hes dead) and then i wake up and its like he's there

its like he's sat at the end of my bed i know i sound crazy but its so real. 

uh! just wish this would go.. i do want help i want it so bad but i just feel like

i cant be bothered to ask for it. i cant be bothered to do anything.

i feel like no1 will belive me because of my fake smile.

oh well!

ive missed you all! and hey to my new followers.. im not always this negative.. i swear :)!

hope your all doing better than i am.

im going to catch up on all your blogs tonight seen as im having a late night.

bit of thinspo for you! xxxxx

"How do you get up from an all time low?"

.....please can someone let me know.